update 2: FINALLY! IT'S WORKING!
so, I plugged this circuit into the outlet, and it started to create that high voltage, but the problem is that my computer immediately shut down. why? I think it's because I use a power strip where I have my computer, the monitor, the router, the cell phone charger, and the computer is the heaviest load, using a maximum of 200w, so when I connected my ballast that consumes 110w, I think there was not enough power for the power supply to work, and then the computer immediately shut down. in addition, the circuit created high voltage, but the voltage is so high that the pins started to create a very large arc, so what I'm going to do is isolate these pins very well and leave only the grounding pin exposed